Blog 6

So, 6 blogs in and nothing has happened. No minor internet celebrity, no crazed emails, well except one, all in all, quite uneventful. In fact, I'm not even sure if anyone actually reads these things. I think I could write just about anything here and no one will care. That's fine I guess.

I've been flip-flopping between calling the girl and not all day. It totally sucks to be in this position. I really want to call her, comfort her and tell her it's going to be alright. There is a lot of "suck it up" factor in that line of thinking for me because it's really hard to pick up the phone and make that call. I'm willing to suck it up and deal with how that's going to make me feel, and it will suck, to make her feel better.

But, is that what she needs? That's the question. And, that's the ultimate question. I have no idea how to proceed here. There's no advice people can give for someone that isn't generic and useless. I value her more than that as a person, a wonderful person.

Oh well, I'll just deal with it I guess. I think tomorrow is a good day to call - it still leaves her Friday to teach and be distracted. I think waiting for the weekend is a bad idea - an idle mind dwells and stews, and that's not what anyone needs, though I imagine we're both in for that. Hum.